You know what I hate?  I hate it when I am lied to.  Because I was acting like a total idiot in front of Chris when it didn't even matter.  He didn't like me anyway, so why did he bother?

Why did I bother?

I can't stand myself.  There's too much material to work with.  I can be really quiet, really i can, but no one wants me to.
It bothers them when I am quiet.

Am I really such an idiot-tard that I have to talk as a norm?

Also, I don't get angry.  At school, I play the "victim" card, where basically I just am sad and everyone comes to "poor Lindsay's" rescue.

Or I can be a "therapist" for everyone.  Stressful but i don't know what I would do without it.

More importantly, i don't know what they would do without my help.

It's so weird. 

I'm at the center of my own universe, but I stand there alone.  Everyone is there, but no one is really.

I...am....really alone....

Kind of depressing.

-Lindsay